I didn’t realize that something was different about today’s sitting meditation until I was already finished. I hadn’t thought about whether to do it or not. I just woke up, sat down in my spot, and did my morning meditation.
I think every day up until now I thought about it first, I thought about putting it off, or whether I would even actually do it at all, it seemed like a chore I had to talk myself into. But now, two weeks into it, I think the lazy part of me that doesn’t like to form new habits has given up, has thrown in the towel and admitted defeat, and said “OK, I guess this is a thing now, I’ll stop fighting it.” And so a new habit is born, and becomes automatic, happening with ease, without any debate.
It was nice.